I don’t care.
I am absolutely drained.
I cannot muster the energy to think about what I should do, need to do, must do.
In fact, I was barely able to open my blog editor, and start typing these seemingly meaningless words.
And it’s only 6:30 AM. on a rainy Wednesday morning in Miami…
And here I sit, in the dark, silent, empty office after the 10 mile commute, feeling quite sorry for myself.
I won’t bore you with all the reasons I feel the way I do. I am sure you have your own worries, concerns, fears, issues. World events, personal problems, illnesses, aches, pains – they are as impacting and affect you just as much as they do me. Your list is as good, or as bad as mine. Perhaps worse.
But as I sit here marinating and stewing in this virtual broth of pity and pain, I slowly come to a conclusion. This day can continue to suck. If I allow it. Or I can begin to change it. At first in my mind, then my soul and finally, in every fiber of my slowly awakening body.
After all, I survived dark days full of lawyers, judges and prosecution. I lived through a prison sentence. I had it all, and lost it all. I reclaimed my dignity. I met my demons head on. I faced the fact that I was flawed, imperfect, and needed to change. I beat cancer. I am a SURVIVOR!
I’m not paralyzed. I feel. I care about life, and my fellow world citizens. I am absolutely energized. I have found the energy to not only function, but to excel, and to do great things.
Sitting here at the keyboard, in this still, silent, soothing, office, pounding away at my blog, keystroke by keystroke, I have figured out the way forward. I have persevered!
What say you, fellow world citizen? Can I help lift you out of your personal funk? Talk to me. Comments are welcome, below. Or email me at firstname.lastname@example.org.